psycho psycho

tonight i made a nice epiphany. we were on the roof of frasier contemplating life and enjoying the neutral skyline of greeley. it's nice up there on the roof looking over the horizon of trees and light polluted sky. we like to think that we could be anywhere, new york, london, anywhere but here. shenni then received a call from one of her auxilliary admirers. we discussed how these admirers are nice to have as a constant ego booster. they are those guys that are in love with you but don't have a chance. you're nice to them because you're somewhat obligated and secretley you like to keep them around as collateral or backup for emotionally desolate times. up until this year i use to have many of these admirers. now, that doesn't go to say that they aren't completely infatuated psychos but they were still there. in greeley i have none. and i realized it's because fundamentally speaking i attract psychos. greeley stock is too bland to foster any psychoses in people. they're just nice one dimensional people. i'm not sure if i should be happy or upset about this fact. i'm not really sure what to make of my life right now here. every fucking day here. and, i realized that i attract either introverted nerdy engineer types or just plain psychos. there's something wrong with me. and that's fine, i'm willing to accept that. but there's something more wrong with me being here. every fucking day.